In a tiny nutty shell

After coming back from Chile, I don’t feel like I fit in. Reverse culture shock didn’t kick in until I got back here on campus where life is so skewed in terms of normalacy. So today I tried to change something about myself to see how it felt, to try on someone else’s shoes to put it. I found my pearl earring (or fake pearl earrings, I have no idea) and decided to see how it felt to trade in my sporty t-shirts for a sweater and some pearls. I felt surprisingly more upbeat all day (maybe kind of like being blond?). I didn’t get called out on my experiment until after dinner, but my pearls had empowered me and I didn’t feel like I had to explain myself.  It  I worried though as I met people that night that would see my pearls, judge me, and lump me into a group. But if I didn’t have them on, the same thing would happen. I changed one thing and felt like I could do what ever I wanted to do because I was exploring someone different. I don’t think the pearls work for me everyday, but the change was liberating.